First Post-Ground Zero

So, I'm now getting ready to start eating right. Again. I am hoping that keeping a diary will help me stay focused and on track. Why in a blog? Well, it keeps it online so I can access it from several places, though, alas, not from work. At least not for now.

Yes, I have been very bad. It's not so much that I don't know what to do, it's that I just haven't been doing it, like so many people I know. I find it really difficult to work exercise into a 12 hour sedentary job day. I find it hard to control what I'm eating on days I'm so stressed I feel guilty for going to the bathroom. Half the time I eat when I'm actually thirsty. Of course the advantage is that if I don't drink, I don't have to feel guilty about peeing, since I won't have to go.

So I had some plans for when I got back from vacation in Jamaica. Buffets, you know, and evil tea and stuff like that. Sadly, on our return we had a power shortage and I eventually gave up trying to eat really well with the restaurants and all, and then it was Christmas and parties and stuff. I still have to work my way through a bunch of German Christmas cookies (too special to just toss), and then I should be set.

My goal is Monday, January 4, 2009.

Goals are:

1. Weight loss down to 145-150 and maintenance at that level. Maximum is to be 155.

2. Get in shape. Target goal for this is our trip to Big Sky in February. That will give me a month to get in shape.

3. Work out a plan so I don't overeat at the folowing times:
a. vacation
b. trips to NYC to see Marc
c. during stress at work
d. holidays
e. eating at our friends' houses

I thought I had at least the holidays and friends stuff worked out, but I've been failing miserably lately.

Reasons to take weight off:

1. I feel ugly at this weight
2. This weight is hard on my knees
3. My heart risk has gone up due to increased waist size
4. My breast cancer risk has gone up
5. It's bad for my back
6. My clothes don't fit.
7. I can't do as much physical stuff
8. I don't feel as good physically when I eat this way.

I'll add more as I think of it.

So, here are some of the things I'm going to do:

1. Chew my food more (>15 chomps per bite, even soup)
2. Put my fork down more.
3. Find my jump rope.
4. Set up my treadmill again.
5. Consider paying to use the PT place upstairs to exercise.
6. Work out a warm-up interval that doesn't take up much space for work and home.
7. Set up the Wii Fit to help me with my goal.

Diet rules:

Breakfast: 2 eggs
Lunch: large salad with protein and dressing
Snack: cheese
Dinner: Meat

I'll see how this works the first week. I am also going to weigh myself weekly on my scale upstairs, stark naked. I will record in this blog regularly and track everything I eat in a day.

I would also like to continue with the morning bowflex and possibly add 10-20 minutes of interval walking/running on the treadmill.

So, for now, I will continue to consider this and also continue to ski and eat some stuff I shouldn't. Just doing my best to keep from getting too bad before the bottom drops out!